Friends gone


My heart is broken beyond repair. The man that I had fallen for which I thought was a real friend. I have pushed him away only to have him keep coming back. Even now it seems like he won’t go away and I am doing my very best to not speak to someone who keeps hurting me.

I just started OA a little over a month ago and I have been facing my daemons. Part of me is trying to face reality and the other half of me just wishes I was lying alone in a ditch somewhere dead. I am doing all I can not to sit down and binge. I blame myself for all the things happening and there is no repair in my heart.

While I am writing this I keep going back and forth to Facebook only to see that he is on but I wonder if he is waiting on me to speak to him.

In my eyes my relationship with my husband is done but I seem to be worried more about the other man than man that I just lost.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s